Insert Inspiration Here…

So, I’m writing this blog with no idea as to where it’s actually going to go. I haven’t blogged in a while cause I’ve not really felt that inspired to do so. What can I say? Life is busy.

I was just thinking this morning about how it’s almost the end of the year. The end of 2008. I was thinking about all that’s happened this year, and also all that hasn’t.

Last night I watched the end of Six Feet Under. Only the second time I’ve ever watched the series finale. One of the major parts of the final episode (written and directed by the superlative Michael Ball – who also wrote the Oscar winning American Beauty) focuses on the character Clare Fisher, as she drives off to her unknown future. As she does so, we flash forward into the final moments of every character’s life. Giving us the impression that all the characters lived full and meaningful lives.

As Clare drives off into her future though, she doesn’t have any preconceived ideas as to where her future will take her. She just sets off with her ideas, ideals and knowledge that she wants to be an artist – leaving all the baggage behind her.

 

In one portion of the episode, her brother tells her about the regrets he had…

 

NATE: Claire, you wanna know a secret? I spent my whole life being scared. Scared of not being ready and not being right and not being who I should be.

 

So, I suppose this all got me thinking about me and my future. Where I’m going. What I’m doing. Who I am. And who I will be. Note the lack of question marks.

I think, for the first time in a long time, I actually don’t care where I’m going in life – or more specifically ‘what I want to be when I grow up’. Who really knows? I still have an idea as to what I want to do with my life, but I’m open to what comes my way. I have a lifetime of issues to deal with, but I think I’m starting to trust God more.

There should always be a time when we look back, when we reflect on ourselves. If we don’t, we never will learn from our mistakes, or understand our behaviour, or understand our past and how it affects us. But that’s just for a time.

We should be outwards facing, enjoying our present, looking towards our future – whatever it may be.

 

NATE: You can’t take a picture of this. It’s already gone.

 

Just because there’s a pole, doesn’t make it ok.

 

“He’s just not that into you”

 

Ah, yes. A quote from one of my favourite programmes. Who knew that honesty could provoke such harsh reactions in people.

 

In terms of first account, misunderstanding. I admit that.

 

In terms of second account, get over yourself love. Fair enough you need to ‘keep face’…so good luck with that.

 

Me thinks I made a wise decision.

Customer service…

So Bank of Scotland, remember that it is a bad time to piss your customers off. Especially the ones who have a mortgage with you…

Now, fair enough, I wasn’t always a ball of joy when working in Somerfield – but I did try to treat everybody with the same amount of respect that I would EXPECT when being a consumer. Now let’s face it – banks are practically no different from all other shops and companies…they all rely on our money whilst masquerading in the idea that they are somehow different: that they actually care about us! lol In actuality they just want our money. Lol

“Friend for life” – my butt.

This statement is made in reference to a really rude woman, who at the bank was horrid, harsh and unsympathetic…I’ve lost my bank card! lol A common mistake.

I would complain, but I can’t be bothered and I also didn’t catch her name.

And I’m gonna go to a different bank as me account is changing from a student one to a plain old current account anyhoo…

“I work in a bank…I’m Tara Banks…”

what-a boot.

 

Inspiration instead of perspiration

So Scot inspired me on Sunday when he went to the front of the church and was all ‘TEEEEEstemony’.

So I thought I share some amazing things God has done in the past year, leading up to this week. And it’s why God is my provider.

So after ejecting a lot of friends from my life who were bad influences on me (and who I allowed myself to be influenced by)…even childhood friends. God blessed me. My Gran died…no no…that wasn’t the blessing. But unexpectedly she left me money….so I prayed about it and invested it in a flat. I own a flat now – which still makes me go ‘EH?!’.

God also blessed me with an amazin’ job…in fact two…one of which I now have a promotion in.

But, I have found it’s when I have little money, not much (enough to get by) that my spending habits go wacky and I buy what is technically called…a lot of crap.

So I started (yes, I stopped for ages) tithing [that is giving 10 percent of your earnings to your local church...also known as giving a proportion of what God has given you...back to God]. I kept at it even when money was become tight to the point of me feeling depressed (that was two Sundays ago).

Theeeeeeeen in the space of a week and a half:

> someone took me food shopping for an entire months worth of food.
> someone bought me dinner
> someone gave me enough money for a social life and to pay for another months worth of food
> someone gave me £100

For people who struggle with the concept of God being your provider? Suck on that (and that little statement is aimed at me too…cause I have always been like ‘how nice for you’ when people tell me how God has blessed them financially.

My God provides for me…but the point isn’t the stuff: it’s the trust.

DO YOU TRUST GOD?

And here’s a line from my new favourite song:

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be empited again
The seed I’ve recieved I will sow

Desert Song – Hillsong

Phil-me up butter cup…

I’m sorry. Just because you re-edit your rubbish advert and put different music in the back ground, doesn’t mean you will out-sell Galaxy. Plus it reinforces the fact you’re cheep and nasty (well not nasty…but definitely trying to save pennies there).

I hate adverts that have no point apart from to be confusing in a bid to make you buy their product - because you’re left pondering why such a visual oddity exists.

It must be said though, your airport advert IS awesome. But get the monkey out my face and someone pass me a trank-gun…

Humanity: So Hot Right Now.

Scientist try to show the reasons why He doesn’t exist.

Theologians try to think Him into their own self-made boxes.

Artists try to out-create him; or use the talents He gave them without thanks.

Why are we so special again???

No really, why does He love us all?

Social Stalking…

…I mean networking.

Move along…nothing to see here.

Move on ya giant freak!

Don’t you wish you boyfriend was hot like me?

Well, he’s not. So get over it and move on. Stop texting me you weirdo…see this…YOU CAN’T HAVE THIS!

Puuuuuuuuuuuuuuure gutted.

PUUUUUUUUUUUUure hate me.

Access denied.

Outta my face.

Good bye.

 

Neds, Gays and Goths…

“My boiler is pure gay.”

“I get on better with Emos, Goths, and Grebs better than I do with Neds.”

http://uk.encarta.msn.com/encnet/Features/Columns/?article=OfChavsAndToffs

Playing with oneself.

So after some consideration, and much research, I have considered things and have formed a hypothesis concerning ‘the Christian and the wank’.

It is a hard subject to think about and discuss as it makes most people feel uncomfortable. Some think the subject is grey, some black and white, others are “good morning pot, this is kettle…how are you today?”…

Anyhoo, find out my thoughts this Friday night at Youth group. Obviously I will be talking to the guys. I don’t really know that much about female masturbation, as I am not a lady.

Friday Night Youth

Living Word Christian Centre

7:30 – 10pm